Dec. 13, 2006 Cary,
Here’s the thing. I need cash flow. I work two part-time jobs for about 50 hours a week and I am barely making ends meet. I have a huge mortgage (working toward selling but the market and such … ), a reasonable car payment and some credit card bills (not enough for debt consolidation but more than I want). I do not go out often, but I do partially support a family member as well, which is where all my money goes. If my tips stay decent, I will make about 20K this year.
Part-time jobs just aren’t cutting it and I have been looking for a full-time job for over two years. I already tried car sales — I suck. I got a useless degree for the job market, and don’t have the cash to go on to a Ph.D. so I can teach (my personal goal) and have a career.
So I contacted a guy about doing a fetish shoot/video. It would involve no nudity on my part. It pays quite well and could be a repeat gig. Am I nuts? I already sold my underwear to some skeevy dude. It felt great not to dip into my savings account just to pay for gas, but also, I was shaking for an hour after he left. Scared. I feel like the fetish video would be more professional (ha-ha) so I would feel safer. I’m not eating ramen yet, but I can see that day in my future and I want to avoid it.
Please let me know soon. I am only 25, so if I am about to ruin my life I want to know!
A Girl With Few Assets
Read Cary’s answer at Salon.com
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Hi Cary,
I think ultimately the decision is yours and whether you feel comfortable knowing that this video will accompany you in some form for the rest of your life even when perhaps you are a wife and mother.
The chances are nobody you know will ever get to see the film but what if they do? You have to ask the question how will you feel then?
If you can hold your head up high and say I am proud I did this for the money then I say go for it…if however, there would be a tinge of embarrassment then I would say no.
Another thing you need to address is whether making easy money is the right thing for you. What if in the future you are short of money again only this time the offer requires nudity…explicit nudity…sex. Would having done this make it easier for you to agree next time and would that be a problem?
Good luck with what you decide.
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